I didn't write anything for couple of days. I guess I am still a bit all over the place. I just don't know what to do with myself. I asked you if you loved me the other day simply because I needed reassurance... I think. After this whole job saga.. I have started to think that you don't care about me and I am so trying to think otherwise but its difficult.
Even though you said at the station that day you loved me... I feel like you love yourself, not me. You probably love the fact that I am around. You probably love the excitement and the fact that there is something else in your life to keep you going.
Remember I told you about my worse nightmare coming true.. You forgot to ask me what it was... I'll write it another day. I have no energy to think of that today. I am down with a cold and a cough, I still came to uni to return equipment.. ( and to see you).
I am glad the shooting is over and I am sad that things are coming to an end. I don't know what I'm going to do after April. Never mind something good will come along....
xx