I've just been called a useless woman!!, yes.. I am really really hurt. I think I am useless its just that I didn't think others had noticed it. You asked me how many languages he can speak.. but its not about what he can do, its about what I can't do. He doesn't need to know any language, all he need is to remember his numbers and he gets paid loads for it. I am the one who got an A for my language, and an A for my Radio Production and one month worth of work experience, So I must be useless if I can't get through a little test.
It didn't help when my friend in back home said "I find it really difficult to believe that you couldn't translate this, I know how good you are at these things. What did really happen?"
and my friends at your work place trying to make me feel better.."You are an incredible character, what made you really write a poem, I've seen you translate things before. I could have given you a dictionary if you had asked"
Everything I hear would have been worth it if I had one bit of moral support from you at the beginning of all this. I didn't need to put much effort to translate that crap!. I only did it so that you wont be uncomfortable. Honestly! I could have done with that job. It would have just been the perfect one for me. I would have got extra marks for my work experience module, I would have had something in hand when I leave uni, most of all I knew I could trust myself to keep a good distance from you if I was to work there. But I thought it's unfair on you to make you feel so uncomfortable. So I wanted to hear you say something like... "I know this job is just the perfect one for you, but we cant work together, so thanks for doing that"... that's all I needed... or something like "Just go for the job, I know its important to you, you can work when I'm not there or if we are ever working together we can keep a distance" if you had said that I still would have written the poem... but I won't be writing this right now. I have to deal with all the rubbish I am getting from everyone half heartedly.. because I am not sure if all this is worth it.
After all, people I fall in love with always disappointed me in some way or the other and men are selfish, so you didn't come as a surprise.